A Month of Worry


Therefore, do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about its own things.

Sufficient is the day for its own trouble.

Matthew 6: 34 NKJV

As you therefore have received Christ Jesus the Lord, so walk in Him.

Colossians 2:6 NKJV

Girl’s night began just right. There was fellowship, laughter, and a comfort that just fit perfectly into the holiday season. We were all gathered in the kitchen, laughing and eating as my friend Rachelle asked me to get the door. I knew something was up, because as she asked, all the other girls spread around finding a seat, as if waters were parted between us. Rachelle turned her camera on and began recording. I went for the door, thinking nothing. I may have had a few silly thoughts as to why I was answering this door and it was such an event to watch, but mostly I thought nothing. I opened the door.

And there she was. My best friend, Madison, all the way from Australia, stood at the entryway smiling, waiting for me. It was if this moment was always meant to be. It was as natural to her as any other daily activity. And yet for me it was too super natural to even fathom. I can tell you it was more than I ever expected, and my actions can attest to that. For as soon as I saw her I slammed the door in her face and ran from the room, too confused to say anything but “NO!” She gingerly walked into the room and approached me. As she wrapped her arms around me in full embrace I still could not comprehend what was happening. I could not hold the hug, but instead fell to the floor sobbing because once again my best friend was with me, and it was too good to be true.

Madison let me cry, and she sat there, waiting as I occasionally stopped to ask for reassurance that the moment was real, to which she readily answered, “YES!” And despite it all, despite my inability to believe she was there, she was. My lack of faith did not keep any of the opportunity from happening.

And so it is with God. For while we are so busily worrying about what may or may not happen to us, and the things around us, he is readily at work, pursuing, calling, preparing, and harvesting. He is actively working in order to present moments of his blessing and love. And even after he has presented these situations to us and we have seen his hand at work, how often are we still dumbfounded as to the very miracle we are witnessing?

Yet our lack of faith does not alter the situation. One can say the sky is not blue, but it does not change its color. And so I find, that my worry cannot change Gods working in me, as much as I have grown up to be taught that that is the case. Christ say’s “Do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about its own things. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.”  And I see that the reason I am called to let go of worry is because our God is all powerful. Worry is useless because even when we worry we are still being loved by a powerful God who is at work despite my ability to believe.

So then, if miracles abound in the midst of my unbelief how much more could be released into my life if I spoke with faith. How many more mountains could be moved? And if my life is created to showcase the glory of God, how much more could this “picture show” of glory tell a story of love and redemption to those who do not know Him. What if I only stepped out, with faith, to a place of belief. How could my story be different if instead of sitting in the room with my miracle, begging to be pinched into reality, I accepted what I knew or saw and therefore walked on, authentically stepping up towards faith and into higher plains of the supernatural? As you have therefore received Christ Jesus the Lord, so walk in Him. 


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